So much has changed. No more school runs. J starts work. The other 2 going to leave the nest soon. Life in the 50s is really taking off to a new tangent.
And to be honest, I feel a bit lost. Never would have imagined I would feel this way. All these years, it's been looking forward to see them grow up and be on their own feet. And then? Now what?
Pondering.... on my performance as a mom. Can't help feeling it could be better. I could have done better. They turned out not too bad, I shall say, all done well in their studies and able to move on to varsity, I think that's pretty good. But still, can't help thinking there could be so much more I could have done with them.
Hey there! Just let go! No use thinking about that now. They are adults! They find their way and make their own path now. My chance has gone. That's about 20 years' time given to me to mould them and instill values. And I do cherish it. With all my heart.
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