One night not so long ago, without the fiery thunderstorm and pitter patter of the falling rain, I snuggle close to hub on the sofa while watching TV. Then I turned to him and said, just so he knows, if IF in the event he's not here with us anymore *touch wood*, I have made up my mind that very day while I mop the floor that I won't remarry until at least my kids are all independent and have their own families. Just lack the act of holding my right palm up and bersumpah. But I do mean it.
He rolled his eyes, of course and guffawed. But I told him that I mean it, and I know I can do it. He said 1 year, 2 years.. maybe can, but anything might be possible la, after that. I told him I have my own reasons why I reached that decision that very day.
1. Do I want to trouble myself taking care of another man in my life? Men! They just want someone to take care of them in the end and have a quick easy way to settle their lust in the middle of the night, don't they? After all the great love profess and what not, that's what the "happily ever after" means, no? Be realistic, that's what I would tell myself.
2. I have 3 kids. I don't think any stepfather or stepmother would provide the same kind of love as the real parents would, somehow. (not to offend any step-parent here, just so you know first) And meimei would grow up and the bosoms would blossom too. I would be totally insane someone not her own father staying so close seeing that process. That would so kill me if he harms her in any way. No way, I can't take any chances.
And so, if IF this happens to me, I would need to be the dad and mom for them, and they would be my entire life until they don't need me anymore.
Do you think he's touched when he hears that?
*guffaws*
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I think I know why he guffawed. Something that he would never admit and tell you. The first thing that crossed his mind is - are you sure anyone would even want you? - Hahahaha! *no offense ah, that's what my spouse would think* - Hahahaha!
u know... now ppl listen to ipod (not walkman, ok?) while they mop so they don't come out with fantasy about having the change to turn down a second marriage..
*guffaws*
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
it really depends on the situation. but as a woman..we need the security n we need companion. in my situation now, i so desperate want a companion, at least if anything happens to me, one can help out. i've ever thought what if i passed out in my home..will my son know how to open the door, call the police....
anyway lei mou lam gom tor la (dont think so much)
mun,
that's a good point! you so bad, now i want to change my mind liao.
goolypop,
my brain works best when i mop floor wor. gives me lots of ilham while i am at that, you know! *guffaws*
lil lamb,
sorry, didn't mean to hurt your feelings. well, after all that's said, "jum mm kat doe yuk mm ji tuung", haimoe? i can say all i want, but i won't know how it feels when that happens..
so, i just wanna put this thought down to remind myself of that very day i mop floor....
wuah....hou kam tung ahh !!!
i absolutely agree with yr point no.1 ....
point no.2, no girls kenot comment
but maybe i might get into another rel/ship minus the marriage lor... u think chat lou pat sap just be boyfren & girlfren, can ahh??
jacss,
caaaaannnn... but no sex ah. later your mama angry.
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