The soft hearted side of korkor

My eldest son seems to be a big bully at times, barking at his little siblings when they kacau him, or complaining when they cari gaduh or when meimei fought with him for her favorite channel when he most wanted to watch his favorite show.

But there are times he showed the soft side of him and those moments gave me a very warm fuzzy feeling. And before I forget what they were, I would put it down for them to remember how nice a brother he is when the siblings were in hot soup.

1. I think the bestest warmest fuzzy feeling he gave me was when he was about 6 months old. He was a very difficult baby, always crying, before he goes to sleep, after he wakes up etc. My hub and I took turns to rock him to sleep all the time, carefully putting him down on the bed after really sure he was in deep deep slumber.

Then came the time, I was pregnant, but was told that the fetus didn't have a heartbeat on my 2nd visit. I was so heartbroken, but hub still need to go back to work in that afternoon and I was left alone with my bb at home, fending my own sadness my own self. He was very tired then, and he would be taking his afternoon nap. Usually I would need to "tham" him to go to sleep, but that time, we both lied on the bed, I was crying, he was looking at me with sympathetic eyes and dozed off to sleep without any fuss. And I thought what he did, though might be unconsciously, was so warm.

2. Fast forward to a few years later when didi is here. Didi was just about 2-3yo and we were making the move back home after being abroad for few years. I was very busy with the house hunting and renovations of our new home, at some times, I had to ask for the favor of a friend's mom to help me keep an eye on them for a few hours. There was this time, she was trying to soothe didi's cries and said nonchalantly "I'll ask the police to come and take you away hoh, if you don't stop crying". The korkor totally freaked out, and he cried himself, begging her not to ask the police to take him away..

3. Last year, during my birthday's at the hotel, we were walking to our car at the carpark basement. It was quiet and there didn't seem to be any cars around, so I didn't hold meimei's hand as would be usually, but still alert of any incoming cars' sound, and making sure she's close to me. When I turned round, I saw korkor holding her hand to ensure she's ok, which was a pretty nice sight. That is because he normally feel shy to hold her hand when I told him to. Aww... that was really quite a sweet thing to do, without me asking him to.

4. Not so long ago, I was punishing meimei for she didn't want to do her homework, and I suppose because I rarely punish her, the boys felt sorry for her. She cried like so "yuen-wong" and kernian-ly, that after awhile, I saw korkor handed her a cup of water (again, without me prompting!) like telling her to "drink this water, stop your crying laa, else mommy would be crazeeeee again laaa...."

5. Yesterday night hoh, this time didi kena punished. For spoiling suk-suk's swinging kitchen door by pushing it too hard. Actually, everyone was saying how naughty he is by breaking people's things one after another, but really, I don't think that was considered naughty laa.. It was not something to be encouraged, but he was just being too active without realizing how fragile things could be. Not like he purposely go and swing it too hard to break it, right? Anywayz...

Papa wanted to cane him, so we were all in the room, and he asked him how many canes he wanted and where he wants to be caned. Of course, didi said no and begged for leniency. I was there to see how things progress. Then papa has the smart idea to say "ok, 4 canes from each of us, and we decide where to cane you!". So, starting with meimei, she was so eager and happy to be the enforcement officer, she even happily shouted "pet pet"! And smack! 1 cane on the pet-pet for him.

Came to korkor.. what do you know! He at first seemed uneasy to be holding the cane, then papa told him to cane anywhere la, he fiddled for awhile, then passed the cane to me and said "nah.. I let mommy cane twice la". In my heart, I think he just can't do it for he really do love his little brother. You tell me, isn't that just soft-hearted he was?

But that little meimei ah... she was so happy to be doing that task on behalf of korkor! And even smack him on the pet-pet with a big grin on her face! (Jeez! I wonder he would have his revenge on her later anot, reading this anecdote from me here?)

So, my eldest son, though sometimes he makes me really frust, remembering these little details reminds me he's actually a very nice and soft hearted kid inside. I love him!