What a day.

Today is a day of mixed feelings.

It began with a grumpy me who hadn't have enough sleep from a late-for-bed the night before, all because of a worthless little disagreement with the unreasonable man of the house. I'll get to that part later, maybe.

So happened, as most Fridays, we set off to our normal routine work in separate cars. I first drop off the younger two in the kindy, and on the way, as I was still a little fumed, decided to skip breakfast with him later, so I called a friend to invite her for breakfast. And thus, I stopped by midway enroute and spent about 45 mins eating and chatting over breakfast.

When I was done, it's back driving to the office, and almost reaching, I was stuck in a massive jam. Dammit, I called him and yelled over the phone on why he didn't warn me earlier, which I can then avoid that road and used another road. He retorted why I didn't ask him! See how unreasonable he is?

And that was about 30 mins in the traffic crawl, and the traffic alert on radio was warning road users about it due to a terrible accident. It's not fun to be sitting in the car, feeling trapped front and back, left and right. Why can't there be moveable dividers at intervals of the highway to let the cars make a U-turn and take another route when these thing happens? I really wished I can just push a button to make my car "jump" over the divider and speed off in the other direction! This is the side effect of entrapment, wild imaginations began to visualize.

Later, some police on bike and cars were "bee-boo-bee-boo" weaving from behind. Then came the siren again, this time the bomba. Then came another siren, the ambulance. And another 5 mins later, 1 more ambulance. Wah.. hampalang came. I was surely curious how ugly the accident can be.

When I passed by, I really had the urge to stop at the roadside together with many others to kehpoh. And yet, I was also very afraid to see what I might see. Eeyer.. nanti I can't sleep for weeks or months, how? So, I chicken-ed out and drove past, went dutifully to report to work.

The whole office were talking about the accident already and how far the jam stretched until, and one guy came back telling about how it happened. After all the information digested, I felt the kind of chill in my head, thinking, well you should guess why already.

I don't know, if I hadn't stopped by halfway to have breakfast with my friend, I might just be the one passing by that fatal spot when it happened. It's really about that timing where we would pass by everyday. In any case, most of us at the office used that road everyday at about that same time too. Lucky we are all in one piece and escaped death. And how eerie, today's the start of Hungry Ghost Festival too, I heard. I think I heard somewhere before, there are more obituaries during this time of the year every year. Aiks!

So, I realized, it's back to that old age reminder of how we should seize the day everyday and appreciate those whom we love dearly when they are still around. Ironically, don't most of us just open our eyes and tell ourselves just that everytime something like this brushes by and reminds us to, but only to fade away again sooner than we expected?

Anyway, apart from letting the fire of despise go, I told myself I'm going to pray a bit tonight too, remembering to thank God for letting me hang around here a little while longer and enjoy my time with my children.

And also apart the feeling of gratitude, I thought to myself, we should be working on ideas or things we wanted to do, instead of delaying, procrastinating, postponing... (even the thing might not be be something everyone approves of?), just seize the day!

I said it's a day of mixed feelings, right? So, this is not the end. I browsed around the news the whole morning (no mood to work, friday mah). There, the funniest story ever about Malaysia products, I don't even know to laugh or cry, neh, the one about RM500 computers and such. The names they came up with to name their babies, can't they even be more professional about it? How much more mockery they want to come up with?

And yes, the word that hit me most... the target market... HOUSEWIVES!!! Cilaka! How gigantic huge their man's ego can be? I knew one of the bloggers will mention it, and truly, she had written exactly the feelings that came over me when I was reading that piece of junk, except of course, more witty and cleverly. Somehow, it seemed like it's an April Fool's joke, but isn't April 1 long over? Seem to be getting hopeless our bolehland, I want to migrate and join goolypop in her not so faraway land, at least her entertainment really funny, can die laughing.

On the news today, apart from this overdue April Fool's joke, another case of rape was reported. Reading that, it reminds me of that movie "I Am Legend". This seems to be what will happen when night falls in KL. Of course, daytime robberies still occur, just like what happened to me sometime ago, but night time, even worse. Chances of abduction and raped if you are a lady roaming on KL streets after sunset and before sunrise seems to be darn high.

So, what wraps up the day? A turbulent day of mix feelings? On one hand, alleluia, on the other, what a big sigh...