The bad thing about tuitions.

These days, I hadn't really been quite controlling my temper well. One after another, they made my blood boil and totally blew me up, like a grenade exploding. But not all without any lessons learnt. Allow me to tell my stories.

The first one deserves a mention is koko's attitude on his lessons and revision. The other day, he asked me if I could ask the tutor to teach him on Kajian Tempatan too. It's a little bit like geography, and a little bit of homeland study, something like that. Who on earth would need tuitions for that subject, you tell me? That led me to come to my consciousness that he's just too over the fence, over spoonfed.

Yesterday night after dinner, while I was cleaning up and working like a dog in the kitchen, I came out for awhile to check on the kids. To my horror, koko was just wasting his time away playing with papa's iPhone. He had his break earlier when I was away with the other 2 on their fun classes, so I was pretty mad.

When I asked him what he's doing, he told me that he was waiting for me! Waiting for ME! Can you imagine that? I just lost my cool and scolded him like a machine gun running.

After some cooling off while washing up the dishes, I asked him to come and have a chat in the kitchen. And so I began the biggest lesson of the day for him.

Seriously, when is it that revisions for exams has become a responsibility of the parent? I told him he should be taking his initiatives to learn and revise on his own, I can only be of assistance when there's anything he doesn't understand. Just like the tuitions, the chinese tutor is here to help him with chinese only. And I am helping him out in his struggle to command the BM. I provide the tools for him to learn, like buying the workbooks and reference books. Other than that, he should be the one responsible to revise, learn and read, and gain knowledge. Not me telling him on what to do now, and what to do next.

Really, this son of mine is too pampered and spoon fed. I told him I'm just gonna stop telling him what to do, but most importantly, I want to see him holding responsibility of his own future and learning to be taking initiatives. Not only taking initiative in downloading new games from the internet. Oh, that one, I surely need not tell him to, he's just too good at it.

And that was a lesson well learnt, for both of us. I wonder how much he understood what I said though. I think I can afford to let him slip in his grades at this age, if he could be learning this bigger lesson of responsibilities and be initiative, as I told myself I won't be looking over his shoulder so much to make sure he revises for his exams. And it'll be a cause for a more meaningful celebration if he does make it and excel in his studies. Hope he knows it's all for his own good.